Help! I Need Some Kind Of Guidence....I Think.

I can't help myself, it keeps happening and i don't know why. I need to get my motivation back and start restricting really hard again, to the point where i feel faint with hunger and so empty, that i can feel NOTHING in my tummy.
I have decided today will be my very last day to eat like a normal person and then never, ever again will i be able to. I am hopefully going to fast Wednesday, Thursday and Friday  From then on i have decided i can have a maximum of 800 cals a day but they have got to be split into 100 calorie meals. So one day i might have 500 cals and then the next 600 and so on.
I also need to get back to the gym, i seem to never go anymore. I just never get the time anymore but i have to learn to make time otherwise this weight will never come off.
I think i am still under 110lbs, i am just too afraid to weigh myself at the moment.
My boyfriend was asking me what i wanted for dinner and i said nothing, he was like but you have to eat something. I told him i wasn't hungry but he wouldn't have any of it. I still didn't eat anything, i think it pissed him off a bit because he stormed outside and had a fag. I asked him what was wrong and he said nothing. And then he was like 'do you just not eat because you think you are fat?' it shocked me a bit but it's so true and then he started telling me about his friend and her ED and i kind of got a bit defensive because he was basically saying to me that i was the same as her. To me someone with a ED, has the physical and the mental behaviors. I am nowhere near physically having a ED. To me, i have a weird relationship with food. I always have and i probably always will.
I just need some help on some diets i could do, if anyone has some good ideas please let me know and share the magic :)
Thankyou lots of love Logan x xx

I Hate Myself More With Each Passing Day

I am ashamed to say that i binged again today. I feel sick, ugly, fat, worthless and disgusting. If i could have one wish, it would be for all this to go away and never have to worry about what i eat and don't eat. I feel useless and lazy, i haven't been doing anything for anyone lately and it makes me feel sick because i don't want to be that person, I hate being lazy or called lazy because to me that makes me feel fat.
I have a event that i have to attend on the 14th October which is less than two weeks away, i think it's something like 12 days away, i have to be thinner by then i don't care what i have to do to get there, i just have to be there. I think i should have one meal one day and then fast for the next. This is very risky because it could easily lead to a binge but if i am strong, i should be able to do it (hopefully).
I am also meeting my sister on the 28th October and i would love her to be like "have you lost weight", that would be pretty cool :).
I have a really good motivator to lose weight as well. It's my 18th next July and i am going to get a tattoo, i really want it on my hip and how embarrassing would it be if i got my fat belly out for a tattoo, no i want to be thin so that the tattooist can actually see my hipbone.
Thought i would post some thinspo for some motivation :)

I Can Feel Myself Slipping Again

Hello there,
It has been ages since i last did a post. I have just been sooo busy but i thought tonight i would take the time to actually post something.
I need to get back on blogger again because i can feel myself slipping back into my nights of binging and i dont want that. I binged tonight and i dont really know the reason why i did it. I weighed myself yesterday morning and i think i was 108lbs. I did have a cup of coffee before but oh well. But i need to start losing again, i want that feeling of emptiness again. That feeling can be so addictive but when you eat something and feel full again, you seem to forget that feeling very quickly.
So tomorrow i think i will do a fast and if that doesnt work out i will have a little jelly or something. I feel so full right now that i feel sick and it hurts :(
Hope all you girlies are doing better than me :)
Lots of love Logan x x xx

It's Going To Get Better!

Hey, it's been a while since i last posted a proper post. Things have been going ok, i have had my bad days and some good days. More good than bad at the moment.
I have eaten too much today but tomorrow is Monday, start of a new week so i am going to put my motivation back into the diet.
Things with the boyfriend are going well too, he is so lovely and down to earth, he met my parents this week and they love him, which is always a good thing. It's hard to believe him though when he tells me i am beautiful and tiny. He is always saying that i don't eat enough and am quite skinny. It's not that i think he is lying to me, it's just i am not skinny enough for me.
Tomorrow i have quite a busy day so i don't think i am going to have enough time to go to the gym and Tuesday i have college and then i am catching up with a friend afterwards so the next possible time i have free for the gym is Wednesday. I feel so unfit right now and i miss running quite alot.
Anyways have a nice day and speak to you all very soon. x x x

Silly Cow

All i have to say is i think i have eaten tooo much!

Sorry, It's Been A While

Hey, everyone how are you? Things have been MENTAL lately.
So, i have some gossip to tell you guys. I met up with that guy i told you about, and we got along really well, it was quite weird hoe comfortable we were with each other. We have our own funny banter. Anyways that evening when we were waiting for my bus, he kissed me. Ahhh it was so lovely. We have been texting back and forth everyday since then. I thought i would have the guts and ask him to be my boyfriend (this feels so cheesy writing it down) and he said yes. So i am in a good and happy place at the moment.
And also *drumroll* i have lost weight. Usually when i don't post in a while it's because i have gone off the rails and put on a bunch of weight. I think last time i was somewhere around 112lbs, well this morning i got on the scales and 108.4 i think. I know it was 108.something. Also i have gone down a trouser size. I have been wearing skinny jeans to work and everyone says they like me in skinny jeans. Hopefully when i lose more weight i can wear skinny jeans more often.
Well, i hope you all are doing well. Sorry i haven't been posting and commenting in a while, it has just been really hectic lately and i haven't had the time.
Love Logan x x xx

Might Be A Little Excited ;)

It's been a few days since my last post, not much has happened really. Eating went well this week apart from today, i had way too much to eat, that i can't even remember all that i had. Back on track tomorrow with a fast though.
Weighed myself yesterday morning and the scales said 112.6lbs. Yay! So excited. I doubt it will be that tomorrow though, but i am not going to weigh myself for a while again because i go off track if the numbers don't go down as quickly as i want them too.
So, do you remember that guy i told you about? Well he messeged me yesterday and we got talking as you do. And he asked me to go to this air show our town is doing. I was like 'hell yeah'. So we are going on Sunday and i am well excited. I am just worried on what to wear so i don't show the world my flab and fat. I thought about some skinny jeans, because everyone says i look good in them. I don't agree but whatever. And a nice shirt with a hoody because i am bound to get cold. It's always windy on the beach.
I hope you all have a lovely weekend and i will be back to give you deeetails :):)
Lots Of Love Logan x x

I Just Don't Understand

I am so confused right now. I ate a kitkat today, the two finger one and i feel sooooo guilty. But why? Because some people eat that just as a snack when i ate it as just my dinner. I felt guilty because it's chocolate and has a lot of calories and fat for something so small. But the thing i don't understand is that, why should i feel really guilty about that when i could have binged on a whole pack of 9. I should be proud of myself that i just ate one and said that was enough. Instead i have to torture my mind over and over again that i shouldn't of had it. I should of just chose a orange instead.
I feel like i have to do 200 crunches.
I feel so tired and have had alot of headaches lately. I know this is happening because i'm not eating enough. But i will do anything to be thin.
I think that i need to plan my calories for the day so then i know exactly how many i have had.
I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow, so that should help this weight loss a little bit faster. I haven't weighed myself in ages because i am so scared of what the scale will say. It's so weird how that little object is so powerful.
I was also so strong yesterday, i took my little sister shopping and treated her to Macdonalds but all i got for myself was a diet coke. No food, just coke. But i was a little naughty and had 2 chips but whatever....
Hope you lovelies are doing well. I am thinking of you x x
Love Logan x x

Mixed Emotions

I think i last posted when i was fasting. I only fasted for that day though and then the next day i ate probably what a normal person would eat. The day after that was Friday and i fasted then and then yesterday i ate again like a normal person. So i didn't do very well but i didn't do too bad either.
I thought about fasting again today but i went to the gym and i was so tired i couldn't even run that far, so when i came home, i had a cup of tea and 2 biscuits (naughty, naughty). Then for dinner, i had fruit loaf and go ahead bar. So i am defiantly getting back on track, which makes me really excited.
However, i am scared. I am scared that once i fall into this cycle again, i won't be able to get out and the losing weight will become so addictive. I have a goal weight and image in mind but whether i will be blind and won't see it when i get there is another story. But i really don't want to be this fat for the rest of my life.
I was also thinking about the disadvantages and advantages about this losing weight business.
The disadvantages weighed out the advantages but that still doesn't change my mind about what i am doing. I want to be thin and i will do everything in power to have it.
Sorry this post is a bit jumbled. My mind is in a jumble today :).
Thankyou for reading.
Love Logan x x

Loving Green Tea

I am doing well today for the first time in over a week *claps*. I haven't had a single bite to eat and i am keeping it that way. I had a really cold glass of water when i got up this morning, then for lunch i had some green tea and then for dinner i had normal tea. I haven't done a fast in ages and i am loving the high i am getting right now. I remember why this is so addicting now :).
Not much has been happening really, just been doing the usual and going to work.
Tomorrow i think i will carry on with the fast, i might un box all my clothes and re box them again so they are neat. I do have a little bit of OCD i think but not major.
I hope you are all doing well and thankyou to all my lovely followers who comment and thanks to my new followers.
Love Logan x x

Yummy!

Failing But Still Not Giving Up

Just by reading the title i am sure you have all guessed right. I did binge again today. But i think i have had enough now, my body is starting to retaliate. I have had some horrid stomach cramps, felt sick and all the rest.
Today i am such a good mood, most days i am but usually when i binge i go into this depressive mute mode and don't like to talk to anyone or feel like functioning normally. But today i don't feel like that, i feel so positive, that this week will be good. If i was going to fuck up at all this week, at least it was in the beginning so then when i weigh in next week, i would have hopefully lost a little bit.
I can do this, I can have a tiny flat tummy, a gap between my thighs, shoulders and elbows that could slice through ice. If i can do it, then you can to, so lets do it together. Who's with me girlies?
Lots Of Love Logan x xx

The Never Ending Cycle

Hello, sorry i have been gone for so long and haven't been commenting. I will get to that as soon as i have finished this.
I need help, seriously, this binging is getting out of control. On Friday i thought to myself that if i start a new diet on Sunday i have Friday and Saturday night to get the binge out of my system. But then comes Sunday night and i have binged again. Ahhhhh, i hate this cycle, it makes me so depressed, i feel so fat, that i don't even want to talk to anyone.
I am thinking about doing the 2,4,6,8 diet for about 2 weeks, just to get me back into the swing of things.
I am moving house at the end of September and i want to be skinny when i move there and i want it to be a place that i never binge in or am fat in. I want this new place to have good memories not bad ones of me sitting inside my bedroom on a Saturday because i feel so full.
I have decided as well that for every 10 pounds i lose i am going to post a body-shot. I did weigh myself this morning, i had a towel on and was quite bloated. It said 119.2lbs. The first photo i will be putting up will be when i reach 105lbs though. Because sometimes i at least feel a bit more comfortable with my weight then.
Got to leave you i am afraid, speak to you soon
Love Logan x x

Bloody Hiccups!

Yup, i've got hiccups and they are driving me mad. I have had them twice in the space of an hour. I think it was because i drank quite alot of fizzy in a short amount of time and i don't usually drink fizzy. My body was probably shocked by it.
So i went to my friends sleepover and we had lots of unhealthy food. That's the one reason why i hardly ever go to sleepovers. I thought sleepovers were supposed to be fun. Arrrgh. Even though i ate alot, my friends were like "You don't ever eat or drink much" or "Are you sure you are feeling alright". And there i am bloody shitting myself thinking about how many fucking calories i have consumed. It's so weird how people have different thoughts about portion sizes and stuff. I am also really tired because we were up til the early hours of the morning just talking.
Back on track tomorrow and start losing weight again.
Oh, i almost forgot. My friend has this full length mirror, so while i was changing i thought i would have a look to see if my body has changed. My collarbones are definitely more prominent and my stomach has got a tad bit smaller. And also my legs look a little smaller but also more tones because i have been doing running alot more than i used to.
I am also going to get some green tea tomorrow, i didn't think i would like it but i tried my friends and it wasn't so bad.
Lots Of Love Logan x x

Butterflies :)

I love that feeling when you get them butterflies in your tummy and you can't help but feel excited but nervous at the same time. I got that feeling today :).
I was at work and suddenly out of the blue, this guy that i really like comes in. My heart starts racing and my hands start shaking. But my face said it all i had this huge ass grin on my face and my eyes must have lit up when he came through the door. I think he was happy to see me though because he had a huge smile across his face too :). But i only got to talk to him for literally 3 seconds because we were so busy at work.
The thing is, i think he may have a girlfriend. People have told me that they have broke up but sometimes i am not so sure. He has a baby with this girl too, which does make things a bit more complicated. I would still date him if the chance ever came up knowing that he had a baby because i know with him it would be a 2 for 1 package. He might be coming to work with us for like one day a week, so i am definitely excited about that. I just really like him and i don't know how to find out whether he likes me too. It's just i have liked him for so long now and i think that if i don't make a move soon, then i am going to regret it.
Anyways, enough about him. Today went really well, i have had a coffee, tea and a tiny fruit loaf slice. I need to start being strict on myself because this weight isn't going to shift itself.
I haven't been to the gym since Monday though, i have been getting really bad period pains, even though i am nowhere near that time of the month. I just get them really early for some reason. But i am planning  on going Sunday morning because tomorrow they shut early and i have work.
I hope all you girlies are doing well too,
Love Logan x x

Busy And Tired As Per Usual

It has been really busy these past few days at work. But i am not complaining because it has taken my mind off of food. I have had some pretty awesome days eating wise. Just had the bare minimal that i need to survive really. I have had a mini binge tonight though. But i am expecting these little bumps here and there and if i don't let it worry me, i will just forget about it tomorrow and continue on eating as little as i can.
Weighed myself this morning as well and i was 114.2lbs. Could not believe it, i had also had breakfast before i weighed myself. So things are looking good. My work trousers fit perfect now, also my collarbones are more prominent. Hard work does pay off in the end.
I am meant to be sleeping round a friends house on Sunday but i am feeling very anxious, because i wont feel comfortable and i don't want to eat a huge amount of food there either. This is a family that like to eat lot's of food. Don't get me wrong, they are nowhere near fat, i really don't know where they put it. I just really don't feel like going. Maybe in a couple more weeks, when i have lost a little bit more weight.
So tired today, so i will post comments on all your blogs tomorrow when i feel a little more awake.
Nighty night
Love Logan x x

It Was Bound To Happen Again Sometime

Hello there.
Today hasn't been so great. I haven't binged though, i just ate some junk food that shouldn't have gone in my mouth.
It has just been such a boring day, we hardly had any customers in today and it just made me feel tired and weak.
I have stopped eating for today and i am planning on not eating again until Tuesday morning. I really want to do a fast. So i think i might as well do one and see how i do. Hopefully i will complete it and not ruin it with a binge. That would be a nightmare. I think i may weigh myself again on Wednesday. Then it would have been a week since i last weighed myself.
Got the day off work tomorrow so i am off to the gym and then i may take my little sisters to the park because they have been so bored this summer. My mum is soo lazy, she can't even be bothered to take them on a 10 minute walk. Nevermind, i will enjoy spending some time with them.
I hope all you girlies are doing better than me.
Love Logan x x

So Excited!

I am quite proud of myself, i totally forgot about all the food that i ate on Wednesday and just got back to restricting. Normally that never happens, usually i would just say fuck it and keep binging for the rest of the week. I am in no mindset to binge again though. Well for now, anyways. My work trousers fit, a little tight for my liking but at least i am getting there.
Last night, i was up quite late thinking of goals and what i could give myself as treats for reaching them goals. So i feel pretty motivated at the moment.
Also i have booked my first driving lesson for Monday, i am so excited. Ever since i was a little kid, i have wanted to drive. And i got myself a car about a month ago so i am all set, i just need to take some lessons, do my theory and pass my test. Exciting times.
Tomorrow i have work, so it should be quite easy to avoid food. I really want to do a 3 day fast but i am so worried about binging and putting all the weight back on. Oh, nearly forgot to tell you, on Thursday morning after my horrific binge the night before, i thought i would weigh myself to kick myself back into gear. The scale weighed me at 120.4lbs. Not too bad, after all those weeks of non-stop binging and i was pretty bloated. But it's still nowhere near good enough. I just need to get out of the 120's.
I am going to stop waffling on now and let you go.
Love Logan
P.S. Here's some thinspo :)

My Fingers Are Crossed

Sunday, Monday and Tuesday went perfectly as i wanted them too. I could have restricted myself more b ut i wanted to start off slow. However today, i ate way too much than what i should of. But i am not going to dwell on it. I am going to forget that it even happened and start restricting myself again.
I think i might do a fast tomorrow, to make up for today. And i am also going to go to the gym, burn some of these nasty calories off. Imagine if food didn't have calories :).
Really tired at the moment, the nights have been so cold, i can't sleep properly. My work trousers are getting looser :).
Much love Logan x xx

Yay! Yesterday and today have been a success so far. I have restricted myself quite well which i am so proud of. I was in Sainsburys this afternoon and i nearly bought a chocolate bar, i know naughty. But i didn't, i just walked away and bought what i needed to. Which is how it should be. So i just found out that my friend won't be coming back from her holiday, which upset me quite alot. I was beyond shocked when i found out because she only told me the day before. Everything just felt like a blur that day. I don't think i have ever been in shock like that before. I hadn't even eaten that day and i didn't even feel hungry, i couldn't feel any emotion. It was so weird. So i don't know if i will be seeing her again, which is sad. But she didn't even give me a proper goodbye :(.
However i am still going to try and lose as much weight as i possibly can within these two weeks. I have decided not to weigh myself yet though. The reason for this is because i have been looking at the triggers that lead me to a binge and weighing myself and not seeing the number i want triggers me. So i will probably weigh myself when i am ready. don't know when that will be yet, but i will let you know as soon as i step on those scales.
Enough said from me :).
Love Logan x x

Why Is It So Hard To Survive?

Binged again today and hated every moment of it. I wish i could take it back but this world is cruel and won't let me do that. Did well yesterday though, i fasted up until 7pm and then had some nuts. I also walked about 4 miles in the heat and yep, i was sweating when i got home. I also went to the gym and went on the treadmil for 40 minutes which i think burned about 220 cals. So i didn't do too bad. I just wish i didn't fuck it up today.
My friend is going on holiday for two weeks so i want to lose as much weight as possible for when she gets back. She probably won't notice because she is just one of them people but i just want to see how much i can lose in those two weeks.
I am not going to weigh myself though, i am just going to judge if i have lost by the way my clothes fit, then that way my mood won't reflect on what the scale has to say.
So starting again tomorrow with my fast. Wish me luck
Love Logan x x

Shit!

Things aren't going how i wanted them too :(. I am annoyed, stressed, irritated and sad. The only thing i have wanted for years is to be thin but why is it so hard? :(.
Sorry i haven't posted in a while but things have been pretty hectic and i just haven't really had the time. And thank you to my new followers. It's lovely to see you :).
I am thinking about doing a fast until Sunday, which i won't be completely fasting, i will allow myself juice and coffee. But i just want to feel empty again. That feeling always makes me high ;).
I only have one year left until i qualify to become a hairdresser and that got me thinking about where i want to  be and what i want to do within this next year. So i have made a list of some things i would like to have completed by this time next year. Sort of like New Years resolutions :)
I thought i would share them with you.

1. Lose weight and get into a size 0.
2. Learn to drive and pass my test.
3. Run at least 3 times a week.
4. Make more time for family and friends.
5. Qualify as a stylist.
6. See my brother.

That's all i have for now but i am going to add a page to my blog so i can add to it if i want. I do  have pacific dates that i want to complete these by but i will also put that on the page too.

I hope you are all doing well and the weight is dropping off of you :).

Thankyou 

Love Logan x x

A Wake Up Call

So i haven't posted in a while. The reason is because i didn't want to write down that i am just a weak piece of shit. 

I want my old body back, when i could see my bones, when i could wear a jumper and actually drown in it. And i know this may sound weird, but i loved it when i felt the cold. It was just another reminder that i was thin. I stepped on the scales this morning and saw a number i really never want to see again. I just want to stop eating but i know that is quite impossible really. I'm scared that i will never be thin again and that i will just become fatter and fatter. That would be my worst nightmare. I just don't know how to control myself, i have become so uncontrollable, i hate it, this makes me feel sick. 

I don't even have the energy to cry, i have been here sooo many times before it's actually getting boring now. I just don't know what to do anymore. 

Sorry this is such a morbid post, hopefully my next one will be a bit more upbeat :(.

Failing :(

Yup, you guessed it right, i am having a shit time losing weight, everything was going so well and now i am back to square one. It's not fair, i just want to be thin. But something keeps stopping me. I have been here so many times before i just feel like i wont be able to do this anymore. I will just end up even fatter and soon i will be obese. I have stopped wearing skinny jeans because my legs look so horrid in them.
Everyone was asking today, why do i always wear baggy trousers.
I need some help and motivation, everything is just going wrong right now. If you have any tips, i will gladly take them. Thankyou
Love Logan x x

New Start!

Today was one of them days again. I was doing really well eating wise, but i just felt sick all the time and i knew it was because i was hungry. So i had some go ahead slices to help. Then i went to the gym and did some running and rowing which was really good. Afterwards i went to my friends which was nice because we had a good old catch up. But then i started to feel sick again. I tried to ignore it but it wouldn't go away. So i had some Doritos which turned to ice cream and magic stars. Shit! Dreading weighing in tomorrow, if it is bad i might not post what my weight is. As long as it's not over 115lbs i won't be too concerned.
I think i may do another page on here with some of my diet plans, it will help keep me on track and hopefully motivate me.
I got a new car a couple of days ago (i can't drive yet though), but i am so excited to start having lessons, because i can't wait to drive. The only thing i am worried about is that i will become lazy and won't be able to do enough exercise to compensate for my long walk to and from work. However i will think of that when the time comes.
Thought i would post a little thinspo for you today :)

Why, Oh Why?

I ate a ton of biscuits and a packet of crisps today. No utter reason for it, i wasn't forced to eat it, so i shouldn't have had them. I had them because i am a shit eating fatso. 
I am not going to weigh myself until Tuesday because Tuesdays are the start of the week for me. Dreading it would be a understatement. I am shitting myself because i know the number on the scale is not going to be good.
I don't know whether to do the SGD, ABC or the 2468 diet. I like all of them. Out of all of them i did find the SGD the easiest one so i might start with that one and then do the other ones next.
So today i went to see my grandad who i haven't seen since Christmas. I was about 15lbs lighter then, i wonder if they noticed how fat i had gotten. However next time i want them to see that i have lost weight and am not really as fat as they think.
Feeling a bit sick and bloated from them biscuits now, i deserve it though. I am going to go and change and then hop into bed.
Night
Love Logan x x

Jealous Much?

I am sick, sick in the head. I need help. I can't believe i am jealous. There is this women that i know and she is anorexic. She is quite thin, i would say at least 7stone and she is very tall. The reason i am jealous is because she has the control that i want. I used to have that control and now i don't know where its gone. She is starting to get treatment and she has decided to do this on her own. At first i couldn't understand why she would want it out of her own choice. Because she would be losing that control and she would have to put on weight and that is the most terrifying thing. But now i understand, she just wants to be healthy and happy and see her kids grow up. And also she doesn't want her kids noticing that their mummy won't eat much or even eat at all. She is so strong to admit that she has a problem and ask for help. I really do admire her because that takes a lot of guts.
But i still can't help but think why would she want to give this all up? The thrill of losing weight, seeing how small you can get and most of all having that control.
I am not ready to give it up but in the back of my mind, i would like help one day, i am just not ready for it. In some ways i do think i have an eating disorder because my relationship with food is not healthy and i always have food, sizes, calories, weight, numbers, thinspo on my mind whether i am talking to a client at work or walking home listening to my iPod. It's annoying :(. But then sometimes i don't think i do because i am not thin and i don't really have the physical symptoms of an eating disorder. It's just so confusing.
Today has been awful food wise, i don't even want to talk about it.
But tomorrow is a new day and a new week, i think i am going to do the ABC tomorrow :).
Have a nice day.
Love Logan x x

Unhappy :(

The weathers miserable and so am i. It's been raining non-stop all day :(. Don't get me wrong i actually do like the rain, but when it is supposed to be summer, i like to see the sun. I have been eating pretty good since i last posted :). But i just feel like i have eaten too much, even when it really isn't. Today i had a french baguette (with nothing inside, not even butter, i hate butter), 2 hot dog sausages and a seafood stick, thats all. I just feel really guilty. Probably because the baguette is carbs and the two sausages are just full of crap.
I had quite alot of energy as well today which i was surprised at because i haven't really eaten enough and also because on Wednesday i felt really lightheaded and dizzy.
I also weighed myself this morning and i was 112.8. So happy right now. I haven't been this low since February. I really need to go to the gym as well, i haven't been for about 3 weeks. And when i haven't gone in a while i get kinda agitated and i feel like i need to go. I also miss it, because i actually like going to the gym :). I have been doing mini ab workouts before i go to bed though, which i think helps a bit.
My plan for tomorrow, is to have nothing during the day, because i will be at work (i don't like eating at work) and then maybe have a small packet of snack a jacks and some fruit. I will also be walking to and from work which is 30minutes each way.
Anyway i am going to go now so have a nice day and good luck :)
Logan x x

Tired!

Absolutely shattered today, my little sister wouldn't go to sleep last night and she shouting and screaming (i think she had a bad dream), so then she came in my bed, and my bed is a single so i was worried about squashing her. She was fine though in the morning. 

This week so far is actually going better than i thought it would. I think that is because i have been pretty busy. Today i have done pretty well, i did have some cheddar's though and i feel really bad for having them :(. Never mind, it's not like i binged on a whole load of them, i probably had a few more than a handful.

I weighed in this morning at 113.8lbs. But i am not really sure that is even accurate because yesterday i was 115.2lbs. It's also coming up to that time of the month so surely i should weigh a bit more than i normally would. And to think i was 116lbs at the start of the week.

So in my last post i said i would give you my stats, but i can only give you my height, weight and size because i am really scared to actually get the tape measure around my tummy :(. But i will do them very soon. Anyways here goes:

Height - 5'1

Weight - 113.8lbs

Size 8-10 (UK) 4-6 (US)

I am going to go now because i am really excited to go and find some blogs for motivation.

Love Logan x x 

It's About Time

Welcome to my blog. I am fairly new to blogger, however i did have a other account but i lost the email. Silly me!

I better introduce myself. I go under the name of Logan, which isn't my real name but i don't want to be discovered on here. I am 16 years of age and i am training to be a hairdresser :).

The reason i have made this blog is because for most of my life i have been obsessed with my weight. When i was about 9 years old, i thought i needed to lose weight. I didn't start losing weight though until i was 12. And i lost weight dramatically, i probably got down to about 4 and a half stone. But then i started to put on weight and hating every pound that i piled on. Ever since, i have days of restricting and days of binging. I don't think i have ever had a day where i have eaten like a normal person. 

So, i have made this blog to help me lose weight and keep track of myself. I have also found some great thinspo and motivational blogs.

I will post my stats and diet plan tomorrow. Just a bit too lazy and tired to do it right now :).

I hope this will be the start of a great new beginning. Have a great day.

Lots of love Logan x x